Surprise phone calls

It's been awhile since my last post. We're now down to 40 days to go. We have moved in all of my stuff with the exception of a closet full of clothes. I am moving into my parent's house within a few days to live out the remainder of my work year and I am getting my house ready for a new tenant. I spent last weekend at our house in North Carolina getting the guest bedroom ready for Daniel's parents to make their first visit to our new home.... now it really makes not being there hard! Our first house guests and I am not there to be a hostess! We spent Easter away from our families and with our new Air Force family at a friends place in off base housing. We ate greek food and had a good time. We also checked out a new local church which was, to say the least, WAY different from the Catholic Mass that I am used to. We walked in to a live band with crazy lights and loud christian rock music being sung at the 10:30 AM Easter service- wow.... I liked it because it was different but it was a bit of an Easter Sunday SHOCK! It reminded me of The Tree back in college... a Wednesday night college youth group we used to have at USF.

All in all the past week was a good one... and then I get the phone call.

Daniel: "I was offerred a chance to deploy. I would be trained in a different plane!"
Me: silence...
Daniel continued: "I would go to training in Georgia from mid May to July. And then be deployed in August for 180 days! I would get a ton of flight hours!"
Me: "Where would you deploy to?"
Daniel: "Afghanistan. What are your thoughts"
Me: silence.... (because I'm starting to cry)
Daniel: "Hello?"
Me: " That would mean I would move to North Carolina and you would be gone training for two months and then deployed for 6.... so I've been counting down for no reason... we've been married for 4 months and we haven't even had a chance to live together!"
Daniel:" Yea, but afterward we could move to California. You want to move to California?"
Me: "No! I want to actually feel married and live in the same state with my husband... I hate California! " (not really... but I really don't want to even think about moving again after we just got settled in NC)
Daniel:" What's wrong?"
Me: "What's wrong is that you are actually considered taking this deployment instead of spending some married time with your new wife!"
Daniel:" I'm sorry, that's why I wanted to talk to you about it...to see how you felt about it"
Me: " I feel like it's a dumb idea... No, you're not going!"
Daniel: "Ok, I will tell them no... I was just excited to finally do something that I have been training in for the last few years..."
Me: "Well, I've been training you to be my husband for the last few years so how about you get excited about finally being a husband!"

BAM! Yes, amazing answer... I know. Now I am just praying he doesn't get volun"told" to go... :(

I was feeling pretty safe with our choice with the C-130... but seeing that the Air Force can just up and change our assignment and life within weeks is very scary and stressful... the other wives I have met are about to go through their first deployment which has been planned for awhile... while I am here freaking out about some drastic change of plans... the possibility of not living with my husband for over a year now. Life. Is. Not. FAIR! I need consistency in my life after 4 years of traveling back and forth... I need to start my little family and move forward... I am DONE pushing pause for now. Please, help us not get deployed any time soon and pray for us to stay together... at least for the next 6 months!